i ask myself this all the time. why i put myself out there. give myself to others. hurt like i do. once again i have my heart broken. i guess it's really not my heart, but my desire and hope that is broken. will it ever become easier? i don't feel it does with age, it hurts more now then it did 15 years ago. do you ever wonder if it is ever in the cards for you. maybe you are not meant to be. i just have this open hole and i need it filled, but cannot seem to find the person to fill it.